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Surgery Date: October 20, 2009:

Friday, July 29, 2011

"We are what we believe we are." ~ C.S. Lewis

The mental journey that has happened along with my massive weight loss still amazes me each and every day.  One aspect of this journey is my confidence and self-esteem.

I went from being a VERY, VERY confident fatty....to a rather insecure skinny girl...to just lately where I am experiencing my self-confidence coming back...FINALLY!

A lot of my original insecurities with being skinny was very much related to my INVISIBILITY CLOAK.  Remember this post

I do still wonder on occasion if there's a booger hanging out of my nose or if my fly is down when people look at me.  It's just that I'm not invisible anymore...that's all.

PS: I no longer am looking for my invisibility cloak. If you find it, please burn it.


  1. I can understand what you mean, but I am completely opposite. Isn't that funny. I always felt that ppl stared at me and I would hear comments like 'look at her fat arse!' Now I feel as though I blend into the crowd and can walk around and not be stand out. Good blog topic.Glad you are feeling more confident and so you should, you look amazing.

  2. That had a nice punch to it. Great post

  3. Jazzing up JackieJuly 30, 2011

    As you know from Facebook, I've been reading your blog for a while now, in preparation for my upcoming surgery. Decided to start a blog today, so I figured I'd say hello to you in blog-land!

    About your post: I have my surgery this Thursday. I think I'm more afraid of losing the weight than the actual procedure itself just because I've had my fat for so long and it's like a security blanket. I know I'll have some trouble adjusting to life as a skinny girl.

  4. Sorry, I think I posted my last comment wrong. Still learning!

  5. I completely agree with you... I have been a pretty confident fatty.... everytime I lose weight on my own... I freak out and then put it all back on and then some. I can not wait until October... for my surgery. Hopefully this time I wont get in my own way again. I am looking forward to a whole new even more confident me!

  6. Great post! I was confident when I was bigger, but I was extremely insecure about my looks. I worked really hard to improve other things about myself to "offset" my fatness. I still have a ways to go, but I feel SOME of the insecurities fading. It is a slow process so I'm just trying to focus on moving forward. :)